Ruminations on the 9/11 memorial site

I’ve been to the 9/11 memorial site a number of times. First, sometime in the 1990s, I think, I rode that fast elevator to the observation deck of one of the original World Trade Center towers to enjoy the view. There were crowds of tourists and huge plate-glass windows. I remember that the windows were set so that from the floor level you stepped down a few steps to get close to the window, and I remember the dizziness I felt, looking down.

The next time I went, perhaps a year or two after the 9/11 attacks, I saw a huge pit in the ground. It had been cleared of debris, but nothing had been built on the site yet. I remember spotting the holes in the side where the subway train tunnels had been.

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Across the water, a city skyline: the southern part of Manhattan. The tallest building is silver with glass and has a tall mast on the top: the One World Trade Center Building.
One World Trade Center is the tallest building in this photo taken from the Staten Island ferry.

I’m not sure why I decided I had to go there a third time in 2013. Something seemed to draw me there, and, judging by the crowds joining me in line, other people felt the same compulsion. I know I was curious as to what progress had been made on rebuilding the site. I had heard vaguely that a memorial had been built there, but the buildings were what drew my interest.

Why do we go there? And why has this become an obligatory stop in the tourist itinerary? Why did I go there and look at that big hole in the ground years ago, and why did I go look at its replacement?

The 9/11 Memorial site

The 9/11 memorial reflects the gaping holes in the ground left by the collapse of the towers. Its focal point, a fountain, is a hole in the same ground, or rather two. They are not as big or deep as the original footprints of the two towers that collapsed, but mirror that negative space remarkably effectively. Surrounding the square holes is a bronze frame (called parapets in the tourist brochure), engraved with the names of those who died in the towers, on the flights and on the ground.

Looking along the bronze parapets of the 9/11 memorial site fountain. It has a flat surface that is tilted. A few names are partly visible: Sarah Anne Redheffer, Gary Bristow, Amy Hope ... her last name is obscured by a white rose that has been inserted into the first letter, L.

From ground level on all four sides, waterfalls flow in smooth sheets into the black hole, 30 feet below. Then the water drains down a smaller square hole in the middle, so situated and so deep that from standing at the frame, even if you lean forward as far as possible, you can’t see the bottom of the hole. A figurative abyss.

Some people walked along the bronze frame, reading the names, touching them, noticing how the names of family members were placed next to each other. Others were taking pictures of the “survivor tree,” the only tree that survives from the original park on the World Trade Center site. Some sat on benches scattered around the site, and some were clearly fighting tears. So was I.

I don’t know anyone who died that day. I doubt many of the people who visit the memorial knew anyone who died that day. Yet we all grieve. I spent the rest of the day on my 2013 visit pondering why.

We may grieve when there are other tragedies: the Oklahoma City bombing in 1995, for example, or the massacre at Sandy Hook Elementary School. Yet we don’t make pilgrimages to where those tragedies happen. Many people, I expect, don’t even remember the Oklahoma City bombing anymore.

As described in the text. At the 9/11 memorila site, a square hole, with a square hole in its middle. Only two of the sides are visible, since the photo only shows one end of the fountain. The sides and bottom are dark gray. Water falls along both visible sides, but barely visible because it falls in a smooth curtain of water. People are visible on the other side, but extremely small, and only their heads and shoulders.
A partial view of the memorial fountain on Memorial Plaza.

If we compare 9/11 to Sandy Hook or Oklahoma City, they all made us feel horrified and helpless and terribly, deeply sad. All of them were attacks on the innocent, and that touches us because we identify with the innocent.

Mourning 9/11

The difference, it seems to me, is the nature of the attack. While we mourn any such large-scale attack on the innocent, 9/11 was bigger, not just because more people died. Oklahoma City and Sandy Hook were both carried out by home-grown terrorists: Americans. 9/11, on the other hand, was an attack from outside.

America has been tremendously fortunate that, mostly just because of geography, it hasn’t been attacked by other hostile countries, or at least not since Pearl Harbor. Before 9/11, America was supremely confident of its own strength and safety: its invulnerability.

9/11 destroyed that. Suddenly, every American felt vulnerable. While Americans identified with the victims in Oklahoma City and Sandy Hook as well, in this case they felt personally attacked. The 9/11 terrorists were aiming at every single American, and their way of life. That typical American confidence is exactly what they were attacking, and they succeeded. America has changed.

So my view is that they’re not so much grieving the individual victims; they’re grieving for how they’ve lost their innocence. They’re grieving for themselves and the way America was.

Anyone who mourns a loved one they’ve lost will understand that grieving is a long process. And part of that process involves marking the loss in some way. When we’re talking about an individual person, that will usually involve visiting the cemetery where the person is buried, or some other location that was important in the person’s life.

This location in New York has become our gravestone: the marker for the way of life we are mourning. And more people visit it than will ever visit other tragedy sites because more people feel a personal, individual sense of loss for what has died.

Looking at 9/11 today

No matter how often the politicians insist that terrorism will not change the American way of life, they’re wrong. Something has changed, and coming to terms with our loss will take a very long time.

In my view, updating this article in 2021, the grief feels less immediate to me now. Yet everyone can describe exactly where they were on September 11, 2001 and how they felt. Repercussions from the attacks have reached all around the world as evidenced in military conflicts, immigration policy, foreign policy, and not just for the US.

Meanwhile, events in the Trump presidency have drawn some attention to the threat of terrorism from within the US: from white supremacists, neo-Nazis, and other extremist groupings.

So now people feel threatened both domestically and from overseas.

The 9/11 Memorial site, revisited

The 9/11 memorial plaza

In 2019, back in New York for a reunion, I decided to revisit the 9/11 Memorial site. The memorial plaza is just as moving as when I first visited. The trees around it have grown. I strolled around the fountain, touched by the sheer number of names. Here and there I saw roses next to the victims’ names, placed by memorial staff to mark their birthdays.

Plain front front fills the bottom half of the photo but then forms a triangle with its point high in the center of the photo.
Looking straight up at One World Trade Center.

The One World Trade Center building

When we (a group of Dutch college students and I, their teacher) arrived in 2013, the driver of our shuttle pointed out the tallest, shiniest building, the new World Trade Center, and told us that it was 1776 feet tall, which led to a quick quiz from me about what that number meant. These students traveling with me had all taken my American Studies lessons, but only one had the right answer: “When the Declaration of the Independence was written.”

That figure isn’t exactly correct, by the way. The building itself is shorter; it’s the mast on the top that reaches a few feet past 1776.

In 2013 the new One World Trade Center tower, sometimes called the Freedom Tower, wasn’t yet completed. By the time I visited again in 2019, it had opened. Below it is a museum; at the top is the “One World Observatory,” one of the best observation decks in New York City. I chose the frivolousness of the view from the top over the mournfulness of the museum.

From up there the views of the city are stunning, and you can walk clear around the sides to see the views in all directions.

Buildings and streets into the distance. The nearer ones are less tall, but in the middle distance there are lots of tall ones, including the Empire State Building in the center. Taken from the 9/11 memorial site.
Looking north toward midtown from the observation deck of One World Trade Center.

Other buildings are complete now too: several shiny glass-sided office buildings surround the memorial plaza, none as tall, though, as One World Trade Center.

The Oculus

Built to replace the commuter train and subway station that was destroyed on 9/11, the new transportation hub called the Oculus is particularly striking. Its soaring curved lines in the central hall remind people of their smallness in such a cavernous space, even among crowds of commuters.

The Oculus is white, which upflung curves like wings on both sides. The "wing" and "feathers" on the left are not as long as on the right.
The Oculus as seen from one end.

An interesting element of the Oculus’s design explains its name: Oculus means “eye” in Latin: the long slit of windows along the center ceiling is the eye. Looking up from inside, you can see One World Trade Center. On September 11 each year at 10:28 in the morning, which was when the second tower went down, the sunlight shines directly into the Oculus.

A soaringly high ceiling extends ahead, with a large stairway and some very small people visible at the far end. Along the top, the peak of the ceiling, is a double row of windows letting light in. The side walls are ribbed with vertical ribs.
Inside the Oculus.

What to see at the World Trade Center

9/11 Memorial and Museum

Memorial Plaza is free and open every day.

The 9/11 Museum is part memorial, part informational. The above-ground entrance, a large glass-walled structure, incorporates elements of the original tower. The rest is underground and, in it, other remnants of the original structure remain in two large halls. An exhibition tells the story of 9/11 through interactive technology, images, and multimedia. It covers what happened on the day, but also the historical background and the aftermath.

A memorial exhibition honors the people who died in the 9/11 attacks and also the six people who died in an earlier bombing in 1993. Photos of all the victims cover the walls, and another room shows profiles of individuals who died, along with artifacts of their lives.

Temporary exhibitions focus on other elements of the 9/11 story or its repercussions.

The Museum is open every day. Tickets cost $26 for adults, with lower prices for children, teenagers, students and seniors.

Use the form below to buy tickets to the museum:

One World Observatory at One World Trade Center

You’ll see amazing views and some multi-media glitz at the observatory on the 102nd floor. Choose a clear day for the best views.

Click here for skip-the-line tickets to the Observatory.

The Oculus

Besides being a stop for the PATH trains to New Jersey and connecting to a number of subway lines, the Oculus also has lots of shops and places to pick up a bite to eat.

The Oculus is free to enter, and if you take public transportation to the World Trade Center, you might arrive here anyway.

Use the form below to book a 2-hour guided tour of Memorial Plaza and tickets to One World Observatory and the 9/11 Museum so that you can explore them on your own after the tour.

First written in April 2013, revised and updated June 2021.

Have you visited the 9/11 memorial site? Please share your thoughts below!

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Text: The 9/11 memorial in New York City: some ruminations on 9/11, grief and tourism.
Images: top, the view of NYC from One World Trade Center at the 9/11 Memorial site. Bottom left, the city skyline from the water. Bottom right: inside the Oculus.
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Trauma and grief are such difficult issues. Thank you for sharing a thoughtful post on grappling with the unthinkable.

I remember where I was that day… I was 19, and it was the first time I there was a greater world of violence and hatred and that all humans are vulnerable…

This is a really wonderful essay.

As someone who doesn’t live in the US, I hadn’t even heard of the other tradgedies. But I think we all know of the 9/11 attacks. I can still remember where I was that day, when I first found out. It was such a shock!

Lovely description of the memorial. It sounds fitting.

Rinelle Grey

Thank you for the thoughtful blog post. It is a huge and multifaceted topic. Grief takes time for the person and the country. 9/11 profoundly affected this country. Many of our right and liberties have been taken away in the name of security. Look at the Patriot act.

The best security we have is love and respect. We have to teach ourselves and and our young. When we can love and respect each other world wide, then there will never be another 9/11 or Newtown.

What a deeply touching experience. Very honoring. Thank you for sharing it with us!

“So my view is that they’re not so much grieving the individual victims; they’re grieving for how they’ve lost their innocence. They’re grieving for themselves and the way America was.”

I agree with your opinion. I’ve said something similar under other circumstances. Thanks for an insightful post. Blessings

Very impassioned post. Thanks for sharing.

This is one of the most informative and insightful articles I’ve ever read on the 9/11 Memorial. Excellent job, Rachel!